Saturday, December 16, 2006

Bite Your Tongue

To see you when I wake up
Is a gift, I didn't think could be real
To know that you feel the same as I do
Is a three-fold utopian dream
You do something to me
That I can't explain
So would I be out of line
If I said I miss you..
I see your picture
I smell your skin on
The empty pillow next to mine
You have only been gone 10 days
But already I'm wasting away
I know I'll see you again
Whether far or soon
But I need you to know that I care
And I miss you..

Wednesday, December 13, 2006

After A Sweaty Day

Whew! Just came from practice and it's 10:30 in the evening. Not bad for someone who hasn't had exercise for so long. It feels good to look forward to dancing again. I guess my bones are now crankier than ever.. Oops gotta go.

Two Questions

1. Are you going to be happy with that person the rest of your life?
2. What about the age? Will you be required to settle earlier because you are younger?

*On question #1: But didn't you think, for most part of the relationship, that you were going to be happy with that person for most of your life? You did say you wanted to be with that person for the rest of your life right? Do a few months of not feeling happy erase all the things that you both dreamed about? A lifetime gives you more room for change, and working out. A few months is not enough to change a person. Those who get past these "bad" stages end up feeling the happiest and most fulfilled. Otherwise you'll just be constantly searching for something perfect, which is impossible to find.

*On question # 2: Early or late doesn't matter, as long as you are spending this time with the person you really want to be with.

--- You may have an idea of what is perfect, because of things you had in the past. But intentional offenses are worse than offenses that were not meant to be made. Offenses that were done out of sheer inability to care is worse than offenses made because the person didn't know any better. Ask yourself where you will be really happy. With a person who can afford to hurt you because of your mistakes, or a person who would be there for you no matter what?

Tuesday, December 12, 2006

If I Could Teach The World

Beauty lies not in the greatness of appearance
Nor in the feelings of the moment
It goes far deeper than emotions
It reaches as simple as a choice

Choice when made becomes a life
Like the ever dawning of daybreak
Making an impression everlasting
Always sure to come tomorrow

The world is far a bigger place
Where losing sight is full of ease
Never knowing what to search for
Always aimless where you wander

If any one of us must know
Life is not at all completely hit
There are misses and turns gone haywire
Jolts and strikes some uncalled for

Dig deep inside and find
The plea of something that is real
You need not have to go too far
The jolts and misses mere tests of faith

The end will see it more rewarding
To walk the line of knowing
Life goes by happily blessed
When choice made, choice forgiving

December 12, 2004...


...Two years after.. Could've been.

Friday, December 8, 2006

Everything Happens For a Reason

Sometimes, for reasons we think we don't know, things happen. A lot of times we feel they are out of our control. I think it is much easier that way, to put the blame on fate and say that what happened was not any of our fault.

But is fate really something that happens in the snap of a finger, or is it a build up of events that led you to that one moment in your life that you felt was out of your hands?

We don't have to be surprised by fate - when all along we're wrapped up in that cozy thought bubble, thinking everything is happening the way they are supposed to. The only thing we have to do is always be aware of things outside this bubble. Always think that the future lies in what you do today. The bubble isn't there to protect you. The bubble is just there to keep you going, to make you strong despite all the big rocks that lay ahead of you.

We can control our fate. We just have to be mindful of it everyday, in the littlest things that we do. Fate doesn't happen overnight. It is the series of steps that we take, until finally we reach our destination.

Things happen for a reason. Maybe not in the way we planned it, but always in the way we made it. It is our choice, it is our own, and we have to own up to it. If we don't want fate to catch us from behind, then we do our best for there to be no reason for surprises.

Wednesday, December 6, 2006

Just Because It's a Wednesday

Yes, today is a Wednesday. And no, it's not really my favorite day of the week. Not that I have a favorite day.

Well, Sundays are always good. When you actually have time to laze around at home, watch tv, and binge on food. Sundays just give me a feeling of home, and of comfort. It is that one day of the week which you get to plan all to yourself, with your loved ones. And until recently, I believed that everything important happened on Sundays. As my quote goes, "Always on a Sunday."

But really, do important things happen in just one day of the week, right when you expect them to? What about that time when you woke up with a smile on your face? Or that time when you received a pat on the back for a job well done? Or that lunch break where you shared a laughter with your friends? Or the light feeling that you got after taking a walk? The simple hug that you shared after a tiring day at work?

As I thought about it more and more, I realized that clearly life doesn't just happen when you expect it to. Life happens everyday, in the forms most unexpected to us. While we are waiting for something great to happen in a few days, something even greater occurs in our lives from day to day. Being the romantic beings that we are, we've focused too much on the life-changing, that we failed to see the little things that are life-sustaining. These little things are what makes our lives, our own.. and it is not yet too late for us to notice.

If you think about it, you don't really need a Sunday to feel home and comfort. You don't need a whole day to plan something for yourself and for your loved ones. There are so much to look forward to every time you wake up - the laughter, the smiles, the hugs, the faint smell of nature, the sound of people chatting, and the list goes on and on and on. You just need to see that these things are around you, everyday. You don't need to wait for a certain day to plan. Life happens for no reason, life happens everyday. It happens, just because it's a Wednesday.